Mentally illness ? So what ?

When you guys hear about mentally illness , what comes to your mind ? " xiao lang " , " orang gila " ? In medical they are not " xiao lang " or "orang gila " , to doctors , they are patients , which their brains are not functioning properly . Well , they are pretty pity cause they are sick , they cannot control their own emotions . Schizophrenia , anxiety disorders , deppression and so on are brain illnesses . Of course there is a lot but just that i can't remember . Mentally illness patients will have some weird behaviours for examples : keep on washing their hands , keep on checking whether they have locked the door , gates or maybe windows la , scolding people without any reasonable reasons , violence and so on ..


Yes , i know that those behaviours that they are acting might not under their control , because their brains are disorder , we should be more understanding & should feel sympathy towards them . But how about our feelings ? It's really suffer for those who has a mentally illness patient in the family . Sometimes the patient might hurt you , say something which can hurt your feeling or even spoil your mood of the day and yet you can't argue with the patient cause his or her brain is not functioning well ! Sometimes even it is just a small matter but they can make it as a bigger problem . It is very hard to handle & live with the patient .

My old folk in my family , my dad , sorry to say that he's my old folk in the family , i know by calling him old folk is not nice . He has mentally illness , which suffer us for how many donkey years . Actually he had some symptoms in his late twenties or maybe early thirties it's just that we didn't realize . he used to control us strictly and we have to follow exactly what he wants . He keeps on scolding us with some stupid reasons that a normal people cannot accept . He always torture & have violence behaviours towards my mum which i cannot forgive him until now . We all are very panic most of the time & have to be extra careful with whatever things that we are going to do . What a suffer life & i hate it so much . His attitude is not good too & he always thinks that he is right & we are wrong most of the time . He never listen to others people's advices too .

For the passed 5 years , he is jobless until now . Can you imagine a guy without a job & have a wife with 5 children . The wife is a housewife & the children still have to go to school ? Gosh i tell you , that period was a disaster to me , my siblings & specially my mum . He didn't even bother look for a job , while my mum had found a job & i have found a part time job during my form 5 so that at least i have my own pocket money for my own spending . When my mum helped him to look for some jobs & asked him to go for the interview , do you guys know how did he respone ? He told my mum that if these jobs are so good how come there is nobody apply & go for the interview ? And he said it must be not a good job & cannot earn a lot of salaries that is why no one apply for those particular jobs . My mum was so angry & speechless , because she is trying to help him to find a job & at least he will have his own income to surport his own expenses but she had got this kind of respone from him . And he always give lots of excuses for not finding a job for example he needs to pick & fetch us this kind of stupid excuse .

Well after my form 5 , i was luckily enough to manage to find a job . At least i have a monthly income every month for my own & sometimes if my budgets allow i will try to help my mum to buy some households . At 1st it was my aunty who used to pick & fetch me to work & home . But sometimes if she goes for travelling then i have no choice that i have to seek for the old folk's help to pick or fetch me home if my boyfriend is outstation or my mum is busy . That old folk always blame that i am so troublesome when comes to the time i need his help to pick / fetch me by saying that i am working now why should i ask for his help to pick me up . He said he is very busy & have no time for these , but he is jobless how can he be so busy ? And i only requseted him to help when there is no one to pick & fetch me ! Well i got so mad that time & i have no choice that i have to buy a car of my own . My life changed a bit at least when i have owned my own car , at least i can drive to work , help my mum to pick my siblings all these ..

Recently , i think should be beginning of this year then only we realize that he has mentally illness . I think partly it is because of his bad attitudes too that cause him to have mantally illness . Secondly is because he is jobless until NOW !!! He is too free & have nothing to do so always bring out some small cases & argue with us . And right now still my mum has to give him some pocket money for his expenses , his expenses is kind huge you know .Everyday he just lying on the sofa , sleep , eat , keep on complaining that he is very suffer after he had taken his mentally illness madicine . I am so tired of going home most of time seeing him . As he likes to bring some small cases & argue with me & my family members . Until i have totally given up & don't feel like talking to him anymore ! It's useless to talk to him as he thinks that he is right all times . So i always keep myself busy & don't wanna stay at home most of the time . Don't feel like seeing him anymore . I really feel stress facing him . So most of the time i will hang out with my buddies & talk about my problems with them , sing k to release my stress & try to talk to my boyfriend about this .

Well guys , try to control your own emotions . Sometimes don't be so particular with some small matters . Just give & take , life will be more easier . Try to release your stress or emotions in correct ways . Share with your buddies or the one that you love or close to . Don't end up like my old folk .

Home quarantine - sigh ....

Last week Friday night ( 14/8/09 ) went to Kenny's birthday celebration dinner @ pending seafood . I felt a bit unwell . . A bit flu .. But i thought it will be ok soon , was thinking to go home after the dinner but surprisily , my bf called me & told me that he had came back to Kuching all the way from Bintulu .. At 1st i thought he was just fooling around with me and i got so mad . But when he drove to the seafood centre to find me then only i believed what he said .. I was happy , surprised & a bit mad cause he didn let me know that he's coming back ..

Then i just drove my car home & followed my bf's car went out for couple of drinks . Of course , we talked a lot cause we didn meet each other for almost a month . The next day morning it was saturday , as usual , i woke up early to do my laundry .. While i was doing laundry i kept on sneezing . I thought it was just a small matter & i didn really wanna bother about it . After i've done everything , hang out with my bf again . He said he's going to celebrate my 21st birthday in advance , that's why he came back . But too bad , he needs to drive to Bintulu again on sunday afternoon as there's a meeting going on on monday . But at least , he came back to celebrate with me and i felt please ..

That afternoon we went for movie , watched "the proposal " as he promised he will bring me to watch . During the show , i felt unwell , i felt so cold & kept on sneezing ... But still we finished watching the movie . My bf advised me to see doctor but i refused . See , how stubborn am i .. Hehehe .. :p Cause we still have to go to Mango Tree restaurant for my 21st birthday celebration & will go to Kuching Festival after that .. But then i felt so weak & sick by then so finally , i agreed to go to see the doctor . So we have to cancel the Mango Tree dinner . Still stick to the plan that going to Kuching festival as i insisted to go :p

Well the doctor said i had fever , flu & a bit cough . He said this is something like H1N1 . But still under control & he wanted me to stay at home & don't allow me to go anywhere . I was shocked that i have been home quarantine ! Then after seeing doctor my bf refused to bring me to Kuching festival for a walk as i was so sick . I told him i'm ok , i still insist to go so he got no choice but to bring me to the festival . Casue he came back just to celebrate my birthday ma , at the same time he wanna go to the festival too but too bad i am sick . But i don care la , i still wanna go haha .. But with condition , i must wear my mask .. Eh ..... Ok lo no choice ma ...

Monday night went back to the clinic to follow up , i thought i should ok already & can attend my class at night after being checked by the doctor . But by the time the doctor chekced me , he said i still have a bit fever , not fully recover .. Need to home quarantine for another 2 days !! Oh mg goodness , wanna pengsan already .. Somemore this wed is my birthday lei still kena quarantine .. Haiz ... Speechless .. Well , now only hope i can fully recover soon lo .. What to do ....

Birthday celebration & farewell dinner in advance with Samuel Wong

1st of all , wanna wish ah Mou ( Samuel Wong ) happy 20th birthday !! Old liao la old liao la .. No more 19 years old liao . The figure starts with "2" liao , no more "1" le .. Last week Tuesday( 28/7/09 ) we went to his birthday celebration & farewell dinner @ Mei San's restaurant . They were 6 of us , Mou , Ena , Dine , Sean , Kenny & me ..

Well , as usual , the photo kaki ( which is Kenny , me & Sean , Cheng just joined us recently ) brought our tools to the dinner , Kenny brought his DSLR camera , while i brought my compact digital camera & tripod also , Sean also brought his camera . . The purpose for bringing all these things are : it's easier for us to take a group photo using tripod , DSLR camera can take better quality's picture . Also , we were planning to take some pictures of riverside's night view too after the dinner . That time was the opening ceremony of DUN ( Dewan Undangan Negeri Sarawak ) , for more about the opening ceremony of DUN , you can refer to these 2 blogs , http://kennyeo.blogspot.com/ & http://seanarthurpoh.blogspot.com/ . Also , you guys can read from this blog , http://thephotokaki.blogspot.com/ ...

3 layers Teh C Peng - known as Iced Milk Tea

Nowadays , my office has cooking class liao oo . Location : Office's pantry , Time : 12.30 til 1.30pm lunch time , The host of the cooking class : Our office cleaner , we used to call her aunty . She is very kind & helpful . And we didn't know that she can cook a lot of goodies you know & know how to make a lot of types of drinks , smoothies la .. Gosh .. Well she taught us how to make 3 layers teh c peng . . ( For those who don't know what's teh c peng , here's the explanation . Teh c peng is iced milk tea , it's one type of drinks which the red tea mix with melted gula atap or gula Melaka & evaporated milk . Kuching people used to call this drink as teh c peng , teh is tea , c is stand for milk & peng is stand for ice .. Haha ..)

Hehe we all know how make this drinks already lo .. It's very easy lei .. Here's some pictures ...

3rd year anniversary celebration (15/7/09 ), love u so much dear ..

15th July might be just a normal day for you guys , but not for me & my dear . It is the day that we celebrate our yearly anniversary , it is a special day for us .. We even apply annual leave to celebrate if it is weekday / working day . Hehehehe ..

So this year , our anniversary falled on Wednesday , it was working day .. Haha so of course we applied annual leave lo . We even applied annual leaves on the following 2 days , Thursday & Friday .. 3 days of leaves , my manager approved my leaves lei , luckily .. He is so kind la .. Most of the time he will approve my leave de ..

Wednesday that day , holiday wor .. I've packed all my laundary , including my soft toy the pink piggie , then waiting for my dear to pick me , he sent me to the laundary shop nearby my office . Then we went for breakfast .. After having breakfast we went for window shopping . Lunch time we went to McD for lunch then my dear suggested to go for a movie . . Ok lo since we got nothing to do so we went to Star Cineplex , dear wanted to watch this movie " The Last House On The Left " . At 1st i felt nothing wrong to watch horror movie . So he bought the tickets & we watched .. Oh my gosh , you know what , this movie is so so so bloody , so so so horror & so so so violent ! I don't know why .. Cause last time i watched one of these horror movie " My Bloody Valentine " i felt ok lei .. But why this movie made me so uncomfortable la .. It's about revenge , after kidnapping and brutally assaulting two young women, a gang led by a prison escapee unknowingly finds refuge at a vacation home belonging the parents of one of the victims -- a mother and father who devise an increasingly gruesome series of revenge tactics. Oh my gosh i really couldn't watch it anymore so i just closed my eyes all times .. Hehe sorry dear , wasted your ticket =P

After the movie , we went home to get prepared for the special anniversary dinner .. Dear suggested to go to Mus or Mango Tree & let me choose .. Oh gosh , how to choose la .. Both of these places i like them the most . Hehe ... Ok la finally i had chosen Mus lo .. Next round i will choose Mango Tree lo ok dear ? The environment of Mus is nice , quiet & also kind of class . I like the environment so much & we were treated like V.I.P . Their services are good also & the food not bad .

The next day we went to Lundu , Retreate Training Centre . We've booked a chalet for 3days 2 nights .. Well my comment to this new resort is not bad . I like the chalet so much & overall everything is fine . I like the environment pretty much too .. Next time i wanna go there again dear . Hehe .. We've taken a lot of pictures also , they are uploaded to facebook , you guys can go there & have a look la . Well it was a nice trip ... I've given a belt & name card holder as anniversary gift for dear & dear brought me to The Spring shopping & bought me a nice Emilio Valentino 's high heels ..

It was a wonderful & memorial anniversary celebration . Thanks for everything dear ! Love you always =P

Singing K with my buddies

On Sunday , 28th of June , i've invited Cindy , Kenny & Sean to go PopWave to sing k . Cause i was kind of stress so wanna try to release my stress by going to sing . Eh , short 1 kaki wor - Cheng .. That budak Cheng said busy wor , wanna go play badminton with his friends lei , haiz .. nevermind la , forgive this budak la .. Hahahahahahaha ..

Ok , that Sunday morning , after church service , i drove home & get prepared then waited for my dear to pick me up . He promised me to bring me to eat the famouse chicken rice @ 3rd mile .. ( what is the name of the cafe liao .. I can't remember liao la ... ) Hehe , the chicken rice is really nice la but that day i was a bit full so didn really eat so much ..

After eating the chicken rice for lunch , i went to my dear's house watched tv . Around 1.30pm , my dear drove me to pick Cindy lo . We reached PopWave @ Petanak there , i thought me & Cindy will be late , mana tahu Sean & Kenny late for half an hour .. Hahaha ..... Nevermind la .

Well , we really enjoyed our time while singing k . We laughed til tummy ache lei ... Also , not forgeting to take some pictures la ...

Farewell , Lotte ...

Heard from Cindy & Ena saying that Charlotte was going to leave Kuching on 25th June to west malaysia for her further studies ... I didn see her since after our form 5 SPM exam . Gosh , that was 2 & a half year already i didn meet with her .. Time really flies ..

Ok lo , on the 25th that day , was Thur , Lotte's flight was around 1.55pm i guess then the flight delay til 2.30pm ... So , we tried to meet with her at airport . If not have to wait for 4 years lei baru can meet with her .. Ena went to pick Cindy , it was her 1st time drove to Cindy's house lei , then she managed to find Cindy's house , so li hai .. Hahaha ... Then she came to my office to pick me out to airport to meet Lotte .

Then we reached airport liao & tried to look for lotte , Ena & Cindy kept on calling Lotte but she didn answer the phone . . We just walked around to find her , finally we found her , you know what , she was busy searching for her broadband , that's why she didn answer Ena & Cindy's calls ... Lotte lotte , don worry lah , if you really forget to bring , ask your parents to send via postlaju liao ... Hahahahaha ...

We only managed to talk a while with her , then someone saying that they have to move for boarding already .. Eh , i thought her flight delay til 2.30pm ? Hmn ... Anyway , nevermind la , at least we met Lotte la .. And we managed to take a few pictures too .. Haiz , gonna miss Lotte so much la ..

Gathering with Cindy & Ena

Tuesday , 23rd of June , Ena invited me & Cindy for gathering cause we didn meet each for half a year already ( i always meet with Cindy la , but we seldom meet Ena .. Hehehe .. ) Should be a farewell gathering with Charlotte la , this gathering was all about Charlotte but suddenly she told us that she couldn't make it cause she needs to shop for something for her daily needs wor .. Haiz lotte , cant you go there & buy ma ? Hahahahaha ...

Well we planned to go " The Menu " but by the time i reached there , the restaurant is closed . Luckily somewhere nearby there's a resaurant called " Cheese & Tea " . What to do , only choice liao ... Hehe .. Then we all met there lo , chatting there & gossip a bit also la .. You know la girls , like to gossip around .. Hahahaha ... We really chatted a lot there & enjoyed ..

Happy Fathers' Day !!

Well , most of us do know that 21st of June 09 was fathers' day .. Most of the families will celebrate with their daddies ... Daddy , daddy cool ... ( but not for me , i don't think so ) . Me & my dear celebrated fathers' day with his dad loh .. We've ordered a fathers' day cake for his dad on the day before fathers' day , my dear paid for it lah then i just helped to choose what flavour lah , what fresh cream lah all these ..

Finally , it was Sunday , fathers' day liao . As usual , i went to church then after the service i went home & get prepared , waiting for my dear to pick me out for branch . After we had our branch , hehe we went to get his dad's cake .. We wanted to give his dad a surprise by not letting him know that we had ordered cake for him & celebrated with him .. But too bad he found out cause my dear's mum was busy preparing & cooking some dishes for the Fathers' day dinner .. Hahaha .. No more surprise ... But his dad looked delight that we prepared all these & celebrated with him ..

Some of you guys might think : " eh why you celebrated with your boyfriend's dad for fathers' day but not your own dad ? " . Well , i did , but i was just ta pao a few special dishes back to my home & let my family to celebrate their own . It's meaningless to celebrate fathers' day with my dad ( only my dear , & my buddies will understand why & know what happen , i don't want to talk much about it too ) , but still , he's still my dad , i still have to do my part as a daughter , so i just ta pao lo . " 意思意思 " lo ..

Haha , finally , dinner time !!! Well my dear's mum cooked & prepared lots of dishes til i ate too fulled .. Haiz , i think if i wanna on diet also very hard la ... As i like to eat . It was just a simple fathers' day celebration but i can see that my boyfriend's dad was pleased & happy cause at least his son came back from sibu just to celebrate with him . ( Cause next day need to go to Sibu outstation again la ... Haiz ... )

Fathers' day cake for my dear's dad ..

My dear's family ...

I just joined my dear to take pic for fun only la ... Hahaha ...

Our 1st time trying to make lemon cheese mousse cake

Last week Sat , that was on the 20th of June , me & Cindy decided to try to make this Lemon Cheese Mousse Cake ( Actually it's lime cheese cake but we changed it to lemon as we thought it will taste better ) . We'd been talking about it a week before , looking through the recipes that she bought , finally we'd chosen this one , cause it seems easy to be made ( but we had a feeling that the cake might not jadi , sweat , don know why we had this kind of feeling .) So on Sat morning my boyfriend & i drove to pick Cindy up , then we went to Chun Yuan Cafe to have our breakfast there , ate the famous laksa & pok pia . After having our breakfast , then my boyfriend drove us to buy some ingredients @ D.Y.I , & also some lemons @ Choice Premiem 101 .

Once we'd bought all the ingredients , my boyfriend sent me & Cindy back to Cindy's house . After he'd sent us to Cindy's house he's free la ... Can hang out with his friends play dota @ cyber cafe la ... Haiyo ... Guys are always guys , so old already still wanna play games . I even have a colleague in HQ already married & having a baby girl liao , still wanna collect toys like transformers la all these . Haiz ... Hahaha .... But sometimes i think we should give each other some spaces in relationship . Give them some spaces to hang out with their buddies or whatever things they like to do . & you'll see , they will appreciate that we do so , girls . Eh , anyway , back to the cake making topic la . Don talk about them ..

Ok , once we'd reached Cindy's home , we prepared the ingredients .. Well here's some photos to show you the process of making this Lemon Cheese Mousse Cake ..

Before we went to buy ingredients , my dear brought me & Cindy to Chun Yuan Cafe had breakfast ..

Here's the ingredients that we bought , some curi from Cindy's house la ... Hahaha ..

I was preparing the cream cheese , it took so long to prepare lei ...

Haha .. Finally , our cake is done .. But .... Hehehe look so ugly .... Nevermind la it's our 1st try ma ...